After having some one on one time with my computer, who I have completely neglected for some time now, I have attempted to remember what life was like before cell phones and the internet. Well quite frankly, I don't remember, and it makes things more difficult for me.
So I'm kind of realizing that I don't really know where I'm going in life. In the past I've always had these plans that halfway work out for me. I know that I'm going to school to get an education but I'm dreading the questions of where I'm headed after this. I always thought that I would know exactly what I would do next or where I would be headed. As the real world is thumping me upside the head I find that I really don't know much as to my future, yet somehow I'm not too concerned.
I know that I have a few options once school is done, but not having any definite want to go anywhere is kinda scaring me. But I'm sure I'll get some hair brain of an idea and want to go or do something completely different from before.
Another side thought, thinking about all those childhood friendships and crushes... it's funny how way back when you think that the world will never change and everything that will be the same forever. But then one stupid little thing happens and the world is completely upside down. I wonder about how things would have gone if I was still friends with everyone that I promised would be my best friend... What if no one ever changed what they wanted to do? or who they wanted to be best friends with. Where would everyone be? What would everyone be doing?
I regret absolutely nothing from my life, but those little questions tend to seep back into my mind.
Life is great and I have been blessed with many things: my family, my friends, my hobby, my boyfriend.
I was told that to regret something is bad, but is it really, maybe it is just a disguise for hope of a misplaced road in life.
Apparently there comes a time when you need to look back and say the past is the past and now is the time to start over. Start new and fresh everyday. Don't worry about what happened yesterday, accept it and move forward. This thought might be easy for some, but extremely hard for others. Who are you? some? others?
There is absolutely no rhyme or reason to this post just some random thoughts that mill about in my brain when I think of my future or my past. Fortunately the past is done, so no need to worry and the future is tomorrow, which is tomorrows adventure.
1 comment:
Interesting thoughts. It does get very dangerous when people twist the theory "the past is the past so let it be and move on" into "I don't care how I hurt you today because soon it will be the past and we'll move on. There was a period in History where they thought similar to this called the romantics. Everything was emotion and they lived for the day. Carpe Dium! "What if's" turned into "What happened". Interesting to look at what that caused too. I feel that to fantasize too much much about the "what if's" is idealizing things a little and sends us searching for the right choice when there is much more to it than good and bad. Take each day as it comes seems to work nowadays. Great post! Those wheels are turning up there.
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