Everything...

So things are starting to be a little bit better, still rough, but progress is being made. Saturday will be 2 years with Britton and it's kinda weird to think that we've been together for that long already. But I'm excited, we are going to a club in Denver and out to dinner at the Hard Rock Cafe. It should be a lot of fun. School is going alright, I've been using this time off to study and really take some good notes for my more difficult classes. Hopefully this will help bring up my grades and I'll feel better about spending my time and money on school. Hopefully I can really start making some progress personally, in a reasonable amount of time.

AHHHH!

So things have not slowed down one bit for me lately. School is proving to be more and more difficult as time goes on, and so does life.... Anyway I am anxiously awaiting Christmas break for some time when I don't have homework or work or anything to do. For those who know of my driving anxiety, as I call it, I have decided to see a counselor to find out what is going on and see what I can do to help calm myself down in the car. Also I have decided to drop a class so I can focus on stuff and have enough time in the week to work so i can pay all of my bills. As for my sanity I think it's gone I haven't made it through a single day in two weeks without having a breakdown.... things just aren't doing good at all right now, I will no longer be answering no everything is fine. So unless you want the entire sob story don't ask, just no more covering it up... I just can't take it. And no this is not my "cry for help" I'm just being honest and I'm tired of trying to do everything and make it sound like I'm doing so well, because really I'm not. Well hopefully with the dropped class things will start slowing down so I can sleep and maybe find some time to enjoy myself...

Busy, Busy, Busy

So I have booked my flights for christmas, dec 14th thru jan 3rd. School is absolutely insane right now, but this week is almost over so that is good... I will try to update this sometime this weekend, but no one hold me to it. Oh and by the way, I have officially lost an inch all over, so that is exciting to know that my 7am wake up call to go work out is paying off. I'll update soon!

School

So school has officially begun for my junior year of college... kinda scary huh? Well things are going a little better (the ongoing war) but with school I feel as if there is some direction. I've decided that direction is good. So just an update my family came out to visit for a week, which was a ton of fun. We have lots of pictures, which are located on Zack's picture site. It was nice to have my family with me and finally they got to see the wonderful state of Colorado. It's pretty, but not quite as pretty as home.... Britton's family finally got to meet my family, so that is cool, but it only took 2 years... :) Things are feeling a little bit better overall now that school is starting and getting to the gym on a regular basis. Also in case not everyone knows my birthday is in two days!!!! I am especially excited because Britton's family is coming up from Littleton to celebrate with me. Well I should do some work now, I'll try and keep this better updated for those of you reading. Adios!

The Great War

There is a war going on right now, unfortunately it is inside me. I feel like a lost solider, not knowing where to turn, who's side I'm on or anything. I've been pretty depressed for a while now and I'm getting to the point of where I'm tired of trying to get out of it. I don't really know where to go from here, but I promise to keep moving on, in hopes of finding my way out.

Venture Camp

So I'm home for Venture Camp until the 13th. If anyone would like to get together let me know asap!

Sleep

So I haven't been able to sleep for a few weeks now... Does anyone have any ideas of how to sleep through the night and be able to wake up in the mornings?? I've been sleeping but I can't wake myself up and it's like I only sleep in the mornings because I'm waking up like 3 times a night until 4 am but then I can't seem to wake myself up out of these crappy nightmares. If anyone has ANY suggestions please let me know.... I need some freakin sleep!!