The Great War

There is a war going on right now, unfortunately it is inside me. I feel like a lost solider, not knowing where to turn, who's side I'm on or anything. I've been pretty depressed for a while now and I'm getting to the point of where I'm tired of trying to get out of it. I don't really know where to go from here, but I promise to keep moving on, in hopes of finding my way out.

Venture Camp

So I'm home for Venture Camp until the 13th. If anyone would like to get together let me know asap!

Sleep

So I haven't been able to sleep for a few weeks now... Does anyone have any ideas of how to sleep through the night and be able to wake up in the mornings?? I've been sleeping but I can't wake myself up and it's like I only sleep in the mornings because I'm waking up like 3 times a night until 4 am but then I can't seem to wake myself up out of these crappy nightmares. If anyone has ANY suggestions please let me know.... I need some freakin sleep!!

Stress...

So it's official, stress really sucks.... Not that I've ever really been a big fan or anything but it just sucks. You get all tense, your neck hurts, then you take everything personally.... which apparently when someone refuses to speak with you, you really shouldn't take that personally.
Not really a point to this post just the fact that stress is no fun especially when you are not even in school so therefore there should not be any STRESS!!!!!

Life...

After having some one on one time with my computer, who I have completely neglected for some time now, I have attempted to remember what life was like before cell phones and the internet. Well quite frankly, I don't remember, and it makes things more difficult for me.
So I'm kind of realizing that I don't really know where I'm going in life. In the past I've always had these plans that halfway work out for me. I know that I'm going to school to get an education but I'm dreading the questions of where I'm headed after this. I always thought that I would know exactly what I would do next or where I would be headed. As the real world is thumping me upside the head I find that I really don't know much as to my future, yet somehow I'm not too concerned.
I know that I have a few options once school is done, but not having any definite want to go anywhere is kinda scaring me. But I'm sure I'll get some hair brain of an idea and want to go or do something completely different from before.
Another side thought, thinking about all those childhood friendships and crushes... it's funny how way back when you think that the world will never change and everything that will be the same forever. But then one stupid little thing happens and the world is completely upside down. I wonder about how things would have gone if I was still friends with everyone that I promised would be my best friend... What if no one ever changed what they wanted to do? or who they wanted to be best friends with. Where would everyone be? What would everyone be doing?
I regret absolutely nothing from my life, but those little questions tend to seep back into my mind.
Life is great and I have been blessed with many things: my family, my friends, my hobby, my boyfriend.
I was told that to regret something is bad, but is it really, maybe it is just a disguise for hope of a misplaced road in life.
Apparently there comes a time when you need to look back and say the past is the past and now is the time to start over. Start new and fresh everyday. Don't worry about what happened yesterday, accept it and move forward. This thought might be easy for some, but extremely hard for others. Who are you? some? others?
There is absolutely no rhyme or reason to this post just some random thoughts that mill about in my brain when I think of my future or my past. Fortunately the past is done, so no need to worry and the future is tomorrow, which is tomorrows adventure.

Home!

So for those of you who didn't know, I went back home last weekend. It was drew's birthday so I thought that I would surprise him. I had a lot of fun at home. I got to spend some quality time with everyone.
Work is keeping me really busy. I started training for the new position that I'm taking over for in July. So learning all this new stuff is proving to be information overload.
Otherwise things are going alright. It is really hot here in colorado, like 93 degrees.... I'm not sure that I miss the rain at all..... Well I should get going because I brought home work so... Ciao!
Oh and good luck mom with your interview!!

Off to Littleton!

So I'm off to Littleton so I can see Britton. So I probably won' t be blogging for a week or so... but most of you know why!!! he he I'm so excited! Adios!!!